Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Happy News Turned Sad

Jill's Journal: Erika colored a picture of today’s beautiful sunrise of pinks and oranges over the mountains for me this morning, a quiet reminder for me that each dawn is a new beginning.

Life can turn from so sweet to so…painful on a dime. Rob and I were chomping at the bit to soon announce the impending addition of a new baby to our family, but God had other plans. After some signs of complications this weekend, an ultrasound yesterday confirmed the baby no longer had a heartbeat.

There have been lots of tears shed here and I’m sure there will be many more as we grieve, mourn, try to cope with this loss, and eventually, hopefully, prayerfully, move on to a new normal. We’ve suffered the raw anguish of miscarriage before, although much earlier in pregnancy, and it’s devastating no matter when it happens, no matter whether a couple has no children or 10 children. This baby was so wanted, so loved already. And is so missed, already.

Forgive me if I’m quiet on these pages for at least a few days.

7 comments:

Unknown said...

So sad for you both. I offer you both my condolences, and offer that the children you have are perfect for you, and the next one will be as well. Love to your family,

Gary

Anonymous said...

Bobby and I chatted alot last night. I know this is hard on both of you. Every lost child is a hard blow to all concerned and you need time to grieve. This child's soul wasn't ready yet in time it will be. just take care and get well. If God sees fit you'll have another soon enough. Take care of yourself. Give yourself some time. I love you all and am very greatful for the three healthy girls you have.
Mom W

The Four Fays said...

Just wanted to say that I am thinking of you, saying prayers for you all, and wishing you peace.
(((HUGS)))
Dani Fay

gretchenhs said...

Jill & Rob -
I'm so very sorry, I wish I could wrap you in my arms. I remember the first time so vividly and I still hurt for you. I love you very much and I will be praying for you all. Feel my arms loving on you friends.

Gretch

Dragon15 said...

I'm not sure what to say here but wanted to say something. I couldn't just let it go unremarked. My thoughts and prayers are with you and the family. ((hugs))

Andrea Kanelopoulos - Anam Nostos House said...

My dear friends....my heart sank. Only one who has walked the journey truly understands, although I found some still didn't understand as we lost Zoe at 16weeks. It helped dearly to name her, write a poem for her and pray to her often. She will always have a place in our lives. May you know her love, embrace and presence along the journey. I am here is you want to talk or need anything!

Katie Lady said...

Too personal and too real to respond in public. Sent you an email. Love you.